Dennis Henry Decker - Online Memorial Website

Dear Dennis, I don't know how to deal with the fact you are gone from my life for 2 years now. I re-live every minute of that day. not just today but everyday since you left. I am mad at myself because I couldn't make you well or take your pain away. Dennis I can still see you sitting here in the kitchen smoking and drinking coffee. when I met you Den, you lifted me up, but when you died my world went crashing down around me. I have a lot of anger and just can't let it go. Angry cause I couldn't do anything more to help you live longer. I know the doctors gave me credit for keeping you going for 3 years when in fact it should have been christmas night you should have been gone. I thank GOD for giving me the medical knowlege to care for you and to be able to help you as much as I did. I love you honey.

Well Den, It's a little over 8 months and still I can not believe it is that long since God called you home. Remember I told you that the only one who would stay in touch with me would be Nora, well I was right.. Jon has become very distant, I no longer hear from Patti, haven't heard from Frank since he left on the day you went to God.  I have a family living here now. They are ok but fight so much with eachother over the simplest of things. Cody is a kind women, Jim is now my brother, and their son Kyle reminds me so much of Anthony, which is very weird, cause Anthony and I have been talking on a regular basis for some time now. It really feels great to hear from him again. I only wish people could understand how emotional it is for me to be living without you. I lie awake at night wonder how we would get through these problems I'm having. but, I can not hear your voice any more and it upsets me to no end. Oh Dennis to hold you one more time in my arms and to hear you say you love me , I would give everything I have to have that one moment in time with you. If I could put my heart on this page you know I would make it so. how do I tell you that living without you is killing me and at the same time try to make people understand that the loss of you spouse is one of the greatest emotions to try to get past. When everywhere I look I see you and me together. I can sometimes almost hear you calling my name. My God Den what I would give to hear that one more time... How when I open the door I want to call out to you and say honey I'm home. But  I can no longer do this because you would not hear me. If I could let out a good cry I think it would be good but at the same time I worry about who might hear me and what they might think. Also what would it do to my mental state? I have no clue just fear. Dennis I wish I could be with you right now, God knows how I wait for death to come. I am afraid of being alone and dieing alone you know this. So how do I pick myself up and go on without you?? TELL ME PLEASE.. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH HONEY THAT THE PAIN OF NOT HAVING YOU HERE IS ALWAYS PRESENT. NEVER ENDING, I WANT TO HAVE YOU HERE AND KNOW THAT IT IS NOT POSIBLE. aLWAYS REMEMBER " I LOVE YOU DENNIS' , even though I will never hear those words from you lips again, I just hope you knew I was there with you when God came and took you home.

Dear Dad, One day we will meet again,  I will have that cover and will place it on your bald spot like I always did. You can walk around heaven for all to see the halo that I gave you here on earth. Dad, I may not have you here but, you will always be in my heart and mind, and in everything I do. I can not express how I feel without you here. Your voice may be silent, but your LOVE is as loud as ever. I love you DAD now and til the end of time. Love Nora.

DENNIS, Here it is my 1st christmas without you and I feel dead inside. Please do not let this be your gift to me, I just can't take not feeling you. I want to be with you so much that it's tearing me apart.  Den, I kept my promise to you and I put up the tree, I know you would like what I did with it this year, because it's all you, I call it DENNIS' CHRISTMAS TREE.  Den, I never thought I you would have left me so soon,

I'm having such a hard time accepting you are really gone, I'm still waiting for the phone to ring, and yet I know that it will never be you calling when it does ring. honey after this year I do not think I will ever put up another tree, it's just not the same without you. My gift to you this year is as it always has been, ALL MY LOVE now and forever.   Dennis I wish I could tell you how I will continue living without you but , I just can't , because I do not know how..Just know how much I still love you and that I will never stop loving you honey. Merry Christmas DEN, I LOVE YOU , LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER, WALTER

I  miss you, I love you and I know you and my Dad are palying cards right now. Tell him I love him. As for Walt I talk to him every day  and he tells me how much he miss you. In time we will all be home. I love you.  "The Measure of a man is not in he takes or does, but in what he gives with out expecting anything in return. His Rewards are the simplest of all; The Love he brings, The Life he Shares and The Laughter he Spreads.  (CR) "   Your Nephew Kenny

My Darling Dennis,

             Honey it is going on 5 months since you left, and I find myself wanting to join you in heaven. I do not know how to continue in this world without you in it. You are and will forever be my world. I miss your laughter, your touch, but most of all I miss you.... Life means nothing anymore, just waking every day is killing me. There is no else to talk to or to call who will listen. Jon has had very little contact with me, Patti just stopped calling, But, Nora is the only one who still calls every night just after 9pm just as she did with you.How do I explain to people who listen, what a wonderful and happy life we had? I can't but you into words that will make sense. Dennis I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, and I just want to be by your side again, You were right I am missing you calling my name every 5 minutes, I miss your arms around me, you strength , I just miss you honey so much that living is pure hell without you...but know this honey, you will never stop being loved as long as I live I will make sure no one ever forgets who and what you are to me.
DENNIS I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU... AND I WILL SEE YOU SOON...LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER,WALTER

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We both love and miss  you alot!

We both pray for you and mommy

Aunt Denise) everyday

We know  that both of you are

happy together now with God

in Heaven!

Love always,

Your Grandchildren John & Danielle