Dennis Henry Decker - Online Memorial Website

Dear Pop-Pop,

Happy Thanksgiving Honey.

I only wish you were here to share it with me. I'm so tired Dennis, can't stop crying, Just saying your name makes me cry, I have people over the the day today,  I made the turkey and all just for you, I know you would not want me to be alone today But Dennis, I wish I was with you you today. I miss you so much that all I want to do is die. I thank you for all the wonderful holidays we spent together and for the love you gave to me. I can promise you this  NO ONE WILL EVER HAVE WHAT YOU HAVE GIVEN ME. Dennis please watch over me until you come and bring me home.

I Love You Dennis and I always will...oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Dennis,      I write this only to let those who have not, know who and what I am to you. Long has it been since I have heard you calling my name, long has it been sine we held eachother close. Almost 18 yrs together and still no one knows what we had together. I find that to be quite sad for them. They did not know you the way I did, but we enjoyed our lives together.  You were and still are my heart, soul,mind and body. You gave me more love then I have ever received in my entire life. The hardest thing for me to do now is let you go. My love will always be yours,and yours is always mine. I can feel you when I lay down to sleep at night and when I wake in the morning.  I am lost without you here but, I know you are above me,watching me,and still loving me. You and I knew from day 1 that we were meant to be together and to share our lives as 1. Now you are gone from here and the silence is so deafening that it hurts. I knew when I lost you, I would be alone once more. You taught me how to live again but, God called you home. I sit and wonder what if anything more I could have done to keep you here, But I come up with the same answers, I did everything in my  power to make you well, but my ability to keep you alive just went past my expierence and knowledge. I wish I had more medical knowledge, then just mabe I could have given you more time with me. I am glad and somewhat satisfied that you are no longer in pain. God only knows that, that is all I ever wanted for you. To live without pain, and to die without suffering. The last 6 hours of your life were the hardest for me to handle. To sit and watch the man that I love so much slipping away from me and knowing I could do nothing to stop it. It tore me apart. I have our memories but I would rather be with you ! ! !  Honey, I love YOU more then life itself and would have traded places with you if I could, You have a family that loves you. But I am the one who is in love with you... I find myself crying just at the thought of hearing your voice again, to hear you tell me you love me. God Den, I just don't know how to live without you by my side any more. I want to feel your arms around me again honey, Your family knows you as Father and brother, but I know you better then any of them could ever dream of , And I still call your name every night just to tell you  I LOVE YOU , GOOD NIGHT AND I MISS YOU. Dennis my only regret is that I had not found you sooner . Thank you Honey for all of the wonderful years you gave me, and thank you for showing me what LOVE really was. I LOVE YOU DENNIS  ...